Cocktail Journey: Olanzapine 10mg

I've recently began taking my meds again and as of now I'm on 10mg of Olanzapine at night before bed. I can say that I've seen an improvement with my moods. The highs and lows are not as extreme as when I'm not medicated. I still feel things so please don't think the meds make me numb. Personally, they just keep me leveled out. Where as usually the thoughts in my brain are sprinting, they're now are just a light jog, if that makes sense.

One side affect that I have noticed with Olanzapine is that I'm extremely hungry. Before solely taking this medication, I weighed 128 pounds and now after almost 3 weeks I weigh 149 pounds. My appetite has increased drastically. I never ate breakfast and, most days, I would only eat once before bed. I also did very little to no snacking.

Now, I eat twice at breakfast, lunch and two small dinners. I also snack in between meals. I would say if you're prescribed this medication, definitely watch your appetite and weight. I recently purchased a gym membership so that whatever weigh I do gain is healthy weight. This medication has added to my dislike of my body. I've been used to a thin, small frame my whole life. So my weight now is a big adjustment for me. I will work through this dislike for my body over time and hopefully I can find a consistent workout routine that works out for me. I will say some nights I feel drowsy when taking it, but it's not strong though. I was groggy the day after for the first few days when I started back taking them. A little agitated as well…maybe from the grogginess.

Overall I have seen a positive change in my mood swings. They're not so dramatic and chaotic as of now. I'll keep you guys updated on my meds and how they make me feel throughout the cocktail journey. Finding the right one can be difficult and exhausting. Sometimes you can find the right one for a while and, then out of nowhere, the effects just aren’t the same.

Sometimes I wonder why I'm on it, but countless times without it proves why I may need it......for now. I won't be taking this shit for the rest of my life. Once I work on adding other healthy routines into my life I feel the need for these meds will be non existent. Maybe that's the mania talking? I don't know, we shall see.